It’s the start of the weekend

I wanted to say, first of all, that whenever I get sick, I empathise with mortals. Perhaps that is because suffering best grants us the ability to understand each other. But maybe it’s a sign that I’m gradually becoming re-enlightened?

The irony of truly being the better person is that if you’ve done it well, few if any will known about it. Perhaps as a LEO, I am understanding that better now.

I’m also not sure if I am committed to halting my aging as I understand that it’s inconsequential in the long run. I used to be fueled by the envy of others, as one of my auxiliary power sources, and I can still sustain myself in that manner, though at a considerable quasi-environmentalism cost. Speaking of the latter, let’s consider the Gen Z struggle:

A world that is systematically easier to survive but harder to live, is that what we have come to?

As I mentioned in a previous blog, my creativity has been blooming in a fervour, perhaps because I am preoccupied learning about something else. My own mind is meant for higher functions, and I do not always find Cohesion in my current position. I think of the Gentleman and A Scholar trope, but for the longest time, I am a misfit who better suits the Gentleman Ranker trope… I do not come from money or prestige, even for the barest of the nouveau rich, but my own mannerism, education, and sensibilities are distinctly belonging to the landed gentry and academics. Someone my parents do not understand, but my siblings do better, and something that most of my history of friends could not truly comprehend owning to their inability to distinguish on genuine critical levels. It is a lonely path, but I dare not say it was unrewarding.

In fact, I openly admit that despite all my plethora of tragedies, I too have experienced the pleasures of a full mean, sincere relations, the admiration of friends and lovers, not to mention uncommon abilities/traits/powers that are currently underutilised owing to mynown reconfigurations. Soon, though, at the end of the 3rd Zodiac/dawn of the 4th Zodiac, I will be in an unprecedented state of ironic freedom…