I often reiterate my goals repeatedly as a method of manifestation (remember, I also practice magic) so this isn’t new to me. But if YOU are new to me, then it’s important to understand that I deal in mysteries, and that is a core component of how I got here in the first place- I ask questions to understand the story, and follow the narrative to understand the formula.
I also recently shaved my head, to show solidarity with blood cancer victims, whether they be the afflicted or merely the collateral, and as always, it’s a good look for me. With my head, my hair is generally better at zero, or infinity, which means that I either grow it out to wuxia levels, or stay monk mode, which is just another aspect of wuxia mode if we think about it…
I’m not meant to be human, but I am meant to understand them as human, which means that I am always going to be a visitor, not a resident. But I say this not in bitterness, even if I have experienced bitterness, because regardless of the bitter or the sweet, it is, and I am thankful to that it is.
Ever since I undertook these kinds of missions, in what seemed like a lifetime ago, I often think about what I want, and the end goal is almost always the same: I am the master of a small temple somewhere, living quietly, and simply, but far more enriched than I have ever been. If I think about the economy, and the methods I use for survival, eking out a loving is not so hard for myself, but then again, I was never doing it just for myself, and supporting others can become rather burdensome at times… still, I have learned that during such times, I’d rather fight to keep others afloat than to realise that they were let go…
The caveat of course is that they needed me to support them, and if they choose their own autonomy, I must also respect that, for better or for worse.
In saying all that, the idea of who I am becomes a little clearer, and I remember who I was meant to be with greater clarity. The reality is that I have 3 months left to achieve readiness for my 3rd Zodiac cycle, and at that point, I can only imagine what experiences the oncoming 4th will bring: 36 years lived fully is quite lot of character development! Will 36 years be enough to transcend by the next dozen?
By 36, I aim to:
1. Be in my contemporaneous peak physical condition. I have decided to invest more in dieting and cut down on meat to once a week. Training will occur naturally as I reflect upon and refine my Junzi kung fu. I am also considering using ancient fecundity magic to augment self-revitalisation.
2. Have improved financial stability. This should come naturally as a result of focus. I have been self-sufficient nearly always, but I also have many dependants, and my own vitality wavers dangerously at times when I must act for the Greater Good. However, my responsibilities have lightened as people grow up, and while I am still entertaining the concept of erecting a new kingdom on the old foundations, I know that I would also be required to raze the old foundations in order to do so properly. So, at this point, I am leaning towards sending aid to the old kingdom and letting it fade away of its own accord. “The Han is on its last legs, and I will not usurp it, but rather keep it together with as much dignity as afforded until the end.” In this way, we can diffuse the karma of the past, and erect for ourselves a less problematic future.
3. Be ready to have Master Tyler come on as my Editor in Chief. With him managing ‘Solosopher & Solosophy’, I can concurrently launch projects and see to it that he has a virtual sinecure. If he ever read this, he would probably be touched, although bashful, that I consider him the only one worthy of this role. While Miss Arsenic and Ojo-Kamisama are better in specialised areas, only Master Tyler has the generalist perspective while also maintaining true humility: he is much better suited to working with me, as he is not intimidated by me!
4. Is there any need for a 4th?
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